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24 April 2015 @ 03:16 pm

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Feeling: coldcold
Music: "Lies" - Evanescence
12 July 2014 @ 05:38 pm
I'm dying.

Every day.

Might as well spare everyone the agony and just get it over sooner.

I just desperately want to be free of the agony of living from minute to minute.  It's killing me.  I'm lying every time I speak.  I'm looking for death everywhere I go.  I'm cutting, starving, purging, everything i thought I left behind.  I don't know what to do.

I'm not scared of death anymore.  It seems like a sweet release.

I can't even ask for help, because that seem weak.

There's no one.

21 December 2013 @ 02:17 pm
I've taken in about 200 calories in the past 48 hours.

At this point, I think it's a challenge for myself to see how long I go before I actually want food.  I don't feel hungry, I know I should want to eat something at some point but I'm finding how how amazing the human body is when it's stressed beyond belief and dealing with crippling emotional pain.
Feeling: coldcold
03 October 2011 @ 02:24 pm
Every relationship I have ends in some kind of wrenching heartbreak. 

Does that make it worth it to try anymore?

I can't stop crying.  I hate being alone.  This hurts beyond anything to be absolutely and completely alone.
Feeling: lonelylonely